It's hard to completely remove the shackles of the past, because we will always feel. But through faith I continue to pray in these solemn moments. I put on a smile. I continue to smile. I hope that one day I can feel inside what my smile represents in the company of "family."

It’s sold, but it can’t be purchased. You can try to offer it, but not everyone can receive it. It’ll make you stronger, livelier, and convince you that you can rule the world. But at the same time, you’ll never feel weaker, vulnerable or exposed ( Read more... )

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to honor You today. I need to remind myself my purpose, which is Your purpose. you saved me when I was at my lowest, You gave me hope and let me see You. A great weight was lifted from me. I need You. Growing up I looked to other leaders. As flawed beings we will never be perfect and can only hope to ( Read more... )

As I close in one twenty seven I thank God for not giving up on me. I wanted to make it an even 26 but He had bigger plans for me. He asked me to wait, to be patient ( Read more... )

I've been listening to God lately. At least that's what I'm convinced it is, this inner self reflection that isn't critical, no longer hedging. I usually shy away from things that scare me, but God's been asking me to do things that frighten me, that are atypical of who i am ( Read more... )

So I waited a really long time. I've known this girl for awhile. We hang out all the time, only I didn't know how to break it to her, to let her know how i feel. We hang out in large groups all the time, and it seems like she's comfortable around me, and i think she naturally migrates towards me when we're all together. So i told myself, tonight is ( Read more... )

I think it’s like you said, you went into it believing you wouldn’t see us ever again; whatever you did would be absolved because there wouldn’t be enough time for judgment. It was quite an avalanche of information; most of which I don’t remember because I was captivated by your emotions. It didn’t really matter what you shared up front ( Read more... )

This weekend I learned I am capable of loving again. I haven't met anyone new, but I saw someone differently for the first time. The formula hasn't changed, the principle attraction stayed the same. She reminds me of the woman I fell in love with before. She is her own person, different quips, mannerisms, and even beliefs ( Read more... )

This is the true and impossible story of my very great love. In the hope that she will not read this and reproach me, I have withheld many telling details: her name, the particulars of her birth and upbringing, and any identifying scars or birth marks. All the same, I cannot help but write this for her, to tell her "I'm sorry for every word I wrote ( Read more... )

Disconnected. Facebook gave me a false sense of connectedness in this new age. I haven't heard from my friends for about 2 weeks now. I've always chased, and wondered if I deactivated if anyone would (care to) notice ( Read more... )