will i lose my dignity?
will someone care?
will i wake tomorow from this nightmare?

i feel far away from home ( Read more... )

note: i'm staying at ranjani's house in her guest room,which is right below where she is on the comp at this time... in her house ( Read more... )

wow... fatigue... a painful lump... wasn't worried before. but its worse. and i'm worried.....

What's the deal with my brain ( Read more... )

well, i hope EVERYONE is fuckin happy. i'm sure that they are. i mean why wouldn't they be? i know of MAYBE TWO people who EVER approved of me going out with josh. yea... madhu and megan crowther. all the rest of you, well, i hope you're happy. i hope you're fuckin happy that i'll never be with him again. i hope that i'm fuckin happy too ( Read more... )

gawd... i love stand up comedy. the other day it was robin williams, and now its eddie izzard.... i'm actually laughing outloud, which is not something i usually do to stuff on TV and movies and etc... but this is HILARIOUS! i highly reccomend it, especially if you've been having a bad day (like me...) it definitely puts a smile on your face... ( Read more... )

it's amazing how you make you face just like a wall, how you take your heart and turn it off, how i turn my head and lose it all. it's unneverving how just one move puts me by myself.  There you go just trusting someone else.

Now I know I put us both through hell.

I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong, I just didn't think you'd ever get ( Read more... )