you've fallen out. fallen out of me ( Read more... )

i can't make you understand and its frustrating because you are the first person who i've actually wanted to understand me so much it brings me to tears... usually i don't care... usually i'm fine with cluelessness, but not this time. not in this case. i keep plunging myself into you when i resolve to stay away and i don't know why. you say it's ( Read more... )

"Hangnail"

My hopes just fell, and I can't see
The reason why, why there is blood on my sleeve
And all this time, I thought it mine
But it's not, it's yours and

It's not worth it for me, gets harder every time call you
This life you lead, like us living in a shiny ballroom
Next time you bleed, right about this time tomorrow
Next time you steal, ( Read more... )

"Bend And Not Break"

I catalog these steps now
Decisive and intentioned
precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I'm talented at breathing
Especially exhaling
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours

I'm careful not to wake you
Fearing conversation
It's better just to hold you
And keep you pacified
I'm talented with reason
I cover all the ( Read more... )

i hate this. i hate it all. i hate that you can't just accept that i need time to work things out on my side. that its not always about you. i hate all of this. i hate being so confused about everything ( Read more... )

so, my first day is 1/3 done. i had calc discussion this morn and then after having lunch with emily, a girl in my calc who is also in my chem lecture, and her friends, i went to my SEAM Seminar, which was cool. its mostly math, whcih is really good, which means that i ace it :) yay. i have a span class tonight and convocation is somewhere in there ( Read more... )

i'm sorry, i know how you felt when i said and did all that stuff, i don't deserve you. i don't deserve any of the love you give me ( Read more... )

i open my eyes, i try to see, but i'm blinded by the white light. i can't remember how, i can't remember why i'm lying here tonight. and i can't stand the pain and i can't make it go away. no, i can't stand the pain ( Read more... )

the tears won't stop rolling down my face and i can't stop sobbing. i was to say fuck you i hate you to one and i never even want to THINK about you again to the other ( Read more... )

at first i was angry. yes, when i first found out i was very angry. you lied to me. you lied directly to my face. when i found out that you had told one person when you had said that you wouldn't, i forgave you, because i understood that you needed to talk to SOMEONE... but you promised me he was the only one... and you lied. do you even realize ( Read more... )