With hope in your hands
and air to breathe.
I won't disappoint you
as you fall apart.
Some things should be simple,
even an end has a start.

I thought I had so much more to say today, with this. I guess like most days, my thoughts are content with spinning endlessly in my head. 

I need to take myself away
From the pillowed hand on which I stand
And throw me out of the side of a plane
And I'll just see where I land

I will have to pull my heart away
'Cause if I never leave I'll ruin yesterday

This is worse than before. Its all my fault, of course. I caused the catalyst that lit the flame of this disaster. Not entirely sure what ( Read more... )

When will you stop asking strangers, no one wants what we want
Keep one eye on the door, keep one eye on the bag
Never expect to be sure

Disappointment is something I should be all too used to. I don't know why I'm surprised when it happens again. Whether its from a friend blowing off long awaited plans, or a shitty babysitter not following through. ( Read more... )

The National "Ada"

My mind has been stuck on a couple of things lately. Lost might be an understatement. In true Livejournal form, I'm gonna list em.

1- Moving back to AZ. I want it so bad. There's a job idea that I want to apply for. Part of my reluctance in just doing it already is I couldn't afford to get there for an interview. I think this is ( Read more... )

I Don't Know What I Can Save You From

My mind is lost in memories and possibilities. I've got to snap it back to reality. This is the here and now. I'm struggling with shit and having my mind elsewhere will help nothing. I just want too many things. Not necessarily in the possession sense, but in some context, that too.

I feel like I'm bugging ( Read more... )

'Heart Skipped A Beat' The XX.

Instead of casually strolling through memories, sometimes I dive in head first. Not all of them are great. Some I remember probably different than they were, and some I would love to live through again. I thought I'd gotten better about not "dwelling on the what ifs". Its hard not to, though, when you realize you ( Read more... )

Out late with Aaron last night lead to sleeping in late this morning. Which turned into being up late tonight. I spent the wee hours after SNL (where Passion Pit kicked ass) watching Men In Black 3. Honestly it was better than I expected.

A few things bugging me right now. Mostly its money. I don't like going to work 5 days a week, getting paid ( Read more... )

I'm going through what could best be described as a rough patch in my life. And I don't have you to help me through it. And that really sucks. You could call me selfish for wanting you to "hold my hand", but its only because I so readily offer mine to you. Is it wrong I thought I'd be extended the same courtesy?

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Listen to "If I Ever Feel Better" by Phoenix. Its lyrics describe how I frequently feel.

The subject (of this entry) is a lyric I'm feeling right now, among many things. In what seems like a whirlwind 24 hours, I'm feeling more lost than before. Its not a desire to be back home, I know that feeling. This is something else. Some parts anger, some ( Read more... )

An obligatory "I'm gonna revive you, LJ" post. I do want to start using it again. I've downloaded the app for my phone so I can do it more easily. Lets see how long this stretch goes.

Work shit is getting to me. I had thought the 'pay advance' subtraction from my checks was bullshit. That was until I studied the pay periods and found they had some ( Read more... )