Tomorrow, if I can find the time to, I have a bit of a rant (I guess that's what I'd call it) that I wanna get out. Its far to late to do it now, as I should most definitely be asleep. This has been on my mind for awhile, though. As I'm sure I've addressed it before somewhere in the entries of this journal, this might just be a reflection of my ( Read more... )

As horribly awkward as this might sound, I think keeping this LJ going in some form or other has been a great part of the past almost 10yrs. Some great things have come from it. Some great things were lost because of it. But I can always look back at shit that could have long been forgotten. When you've got a memory like mine, you wonder how you ( Read more... )

Its been a decently crazy last month and a half. The move back to Phoenix, leaving the ones I loved in Corpus there, not knowing when or if I would see them again. Paul, though, I got to see. He made the trip to Vegas. It was the best time I've ever had there and yet I feel like he had a shitty time. I certainly had a shitty come down from being ( Read more... )

I used to keep a handwritten journal of all the secret things I felt I couldn't tell anybody else. There were pages and pages of front and back scribbles from as early as 13. Sometime before turning 18, I just kinda stopped. It wasn't that I'd run out of pages, I think there were a few left blank in the bank. I don't know what it was. My social ( Read more... )

I don't think I'll ever understand why I'm made to feel like a monster for doing harmless things. I don't think there's any one person I can put the blame on other than myself. its my fault I feel this way. its my fault I've done what I have.

Life is made up of millions of choices. Can I ever know if I've made the right ones?

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I've really got to spruce this up. That's not just the "hey Corey, post on your LJ more. That's all your posts are anymore anyway." Which, yes, it's sort of one of those. But the whole feel of my LJ is just kinda...ugh? The links/layout or theme and such, I'm just not feeling those anymore ( Read more... )

Stop putting it off. Put these thoughts and words down. I always say there's so much to say and then I never get around to actually saying those things. Tonight seems especially hard. I wish shit wasn't the way it is. I wish I wasn't sittin alone drinking beer and wishing I were somewhere else. Fuck. There's more. There is always so much more.

there's so much i want to write down, so much i wanna say. and yet I don't. I haven't in awhile. i should get back on that.

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Its not a secret, really. I'm not happy. I wanna be somewhere else. I wanna take the best parts of this place and take them with me to somewhere better.

Saying that, I've built up Arizona like a sort of Utopia. I know it isn't. I know that once I get back there parts of me will wish I hadn't left Texas. But there more than anywhere I feel like I'm ( Read more... )

Though your secrets are safe, 
I am the mirror who can’t let go.

How did I ever forget the awesome that is Envy On The Coast? Love this album. Love this day, Thanksgiving. A day to give thanks. Give thanks for the things we have, the things we've experienced, the people who were there for either one. I've got plenty to be thankful for. Plenty of ( Read more... )