so, ive been workin for my uncle roger pat few days. destroyin my grandmas sidewalk. gotta go back tomorrow, and either thursday or friday as well. im good for manual labor. and helens (my sister) birthday present was much better then i thouhgt it was, it turned blue after one use and is very pretty. im gonna name my new friend Syrilis, or ( Read more... )

im somewhat depressed. home is so, nothing. want to look for a job and have something to eat up time for awhile, but horrible at searching. i hate using the internet to talk. i still find it amazing that i use this still. i rarely use email to communicate. talking is so much more instantaneous and i can actually have some judgement, horrible ( Read more... )

home again. unmotivated. letting days go bye. time is a universal solvent.
experimentalist

im back home. grandmas 80th birthday party tomorrow. full bar. aint family great. so tired. what to do here. nite on the couch. livin it large. not really.

panic. adrenalin. fear. banishment. 9 pages to go.
what to do?

i guess i should be a hermit

i love creating hypothesis after doing the experiment. especially since i cant test it as my rat never were able to get that far in testing. Awake again. i plan on taking a good longish nap this afternoon and then no sleep until this lab is done. Im not gonna be close to 40 pages when this done, good thing thats the limit. probably end up with ( Read more... )

what am I. Im a roger according to my book about me. watcehd trainspotting. flaws build character. early nineties techno infected. what is this world we live in. lately ive been feeling that this existance is the end, at least according to every otehr histroy. history repeats, endlessly, until it stops. can you stop for a moment and ( Read more... )

this weekend ate my mind. was exactly and tangently related to what i thought would happen. im a very stubborn perosn. who is pratically perfect in everyway. somewhow i manage, and that has always been a point of pride. i cant take emotions. i usually take the bad ones and leave them in some lost corner, or else blank and reboot. my emotions ( Read more... )

And so the year is coming to a close. insanity reigns. laughing in the face of responsibility. "the way i figure it, we're learning valuable lifelong skills out here. such as? procrastination and rationalization."