feel the ripples of horror and hate echo about. nothing left but to clean what you can. hope it can be healed. im internal? jd too? what to do? im supposed to be able to talk and help and communicate. but i sux at communication. beyond arguing. ploop. pebble ripples until there almost gone, but you can never take them out of account. ( Read more... )

i hate decisions. usually, if i dont have strong feelings that determine my action at the outset, i just am lazy and tolerant and confused enoguh to not know my deciision. im too flippy in many important ones, so usually dont make any decision and get fucked out of the process. i am up to snuff though. apricot actually. it burns nicely, but a ( Read more... )

truth is a purifier, that burns and singes in its efforts to expunge the rot, grasping with tendrils that can not be pinned down. truth fans itself, or cools and remians as just embers until someone opens the door and lets in more fuel. truth can raze a city, or heal a child. ive been wanting to livejournal something for past week. too busy, ( Read more... )

so greek. and more greek. im currently trying to memorize all the possible verbs, and identifying the ones that can look the same. but my translation will probably suck. at least im s/uing. and the sad thing is, i really like greek. the things we read, the mythology, the philosophy (sortof) are nice and interesting. i dont have to speak ( Read more... )

feeling so blah. dont want to do my homework, yet dont want to do any other real option. watch tv? ive been oing too much, and it is boring. play comp game? same answer. Masturbate? not in the mood. you get the idea. im such a blah person lately. aint reaidng anything interestin. mostly just avoiding work. and i lost my sex crazed ( Read more... )

so, im a goin to J-Board. because i stole 8 cookies from downer two weeks ago, was seen holding them outside downer by a downer lady, met with downer boss at "discussed it" and said i wouldnt do it again and was caught 4 days later leaving downer with 6 cookies under my arm (but they didnt see the tomato, lettuce and chicken sandwich also under ( Read more... )

i still can t beleive that ive gone from the kid who played D&d by himself to a favored member of an organization. Where did i change. I know my older sister was supposedly a social outcast until high school where she bonded with the druggie/weirdos. Same with little sister in middle school. outcast->popular within that weirdo/artsy/slacker ( Read more... )

no feel good. very tired, even though i did nothing. i hate those bad feelings inside and so generally try to ignore them, either by playing some addictive little game or losing myself and staring into space. i try to avoid those painful thoughts as, well there painful. im such a nice person supposedly, but then im not a good person. the ( Read more... )

so taking the course history of common sense. silly philosophy. He argues something that is very basic, which is very good, but also not nearly preentious enough. but this one sentence about how we smell really annoys me because reid starts talking about a man who has never smelt before who suddenly gets the sensation of semlling a rose. what ( Read more... )

oksay, why i am i a hippie? the announcer at rocky horror idetnifed me as a hippy because i was hecling him and said i couldnt molest anyone. what matters though is why am i typecast as a hippy? is it just long hair? many have that. or is it the long hair thats unkempt? okay, slightly rarer. but ive been called a hippy by this annoucner, my ( Read more... )