off to camp. *poof*

...poems for the lit kids at the close of our year together.

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i am so sick of other people's interwoven existences with mine, i could just spit. goddamn. my mother's assuming ways, housemates who just don't quite have the same cleanliness standards that the landlords expect out of the lawn, everybody who needs something from me, shit. i got myself into this pit & i'm gonna get myself out. i don't know how ( Read more... )

"I keep drinking the ink from my pen
And I’m balancing history books up on my head
But it all boils down to one quotable phrase
If you love something, give it away"

my parents are officially divorced.

"But are hunters so undemanding of material goods because they are themselves enslaved by a food quest "demanding maximum energy from a maximum number of people", so that no time or effort remains for the provision of other comforts? Some ethnographers testify to the contrary that the food quest is so successful that half the time the people seem ( Read more... )

"The traditional dismal view of the hunters' fix goes back to the time Adam Smith was writing, and probably to a time before anyone was writing. Probably it was one of the first distinctly neolithic prejudices, an ideological appreciation of the hunter's capacity to exploit the earth's resources most congenial to the historic task of depriving him ( Read more... )

session was incredibly helpful. i eased back into my center, slow motion, tears coming like a graceful rain without bracing against them. steve has such gentleness without intruding. afterwards i felt aglow for a few hours, even saw the beauty in floral suburbia as we drove through it in rush hour traffic. now i am somewhat back in stressball ( Read more... )

ugh. i think i am stuck in san diego, which is not so bad in many ways except that i have lots of committments back home... but i can't afford any of the goddamn airline tickets home right now & i missed my plane home. i have no idea what i'm going to do & i feel really scared right now. i hate the fucked up way ticket pricing is done, how ( Read more... )

inevitably, the fire. this one has jade-sent eyes, giggles as i hang her by her ankles. her little brother toddles around our feet, adoring. he has the perfect puff of blonde hair. something lives in children that survives not much longer in most, & that is why i am relentlessly drawn to give my best heart to them, shooting one another ( Read more... )