So, it's been a few days since I wrote. Last time I spoke about how I was ready, blah, blah, blah. Needless to say I wasn't. I fucked up. I didn't technically gain anything too bad, but I didn't lose anything either. Today I weighed in at 202.6. Considering since Sunday I've been bed ridden do to my fat ass falling down some stairs. (sorry I had ( Read more... )

 As many of us progress through life we lose ourselves in our everyday. Unintentionally, no matter how we try to fight it, we give in to our surroundings. We succumb to negativity of all kinds, judgment and self hatred being at the forefront of this rat race we call life. I write all this to say I am at my happiest when I am content being me. When ( Read more... )

 Back at it tomorrow. The End.

Hey, Im not sure If anyone is even gonna read this, but im posting anyway.  Since i was last on about a year ago I havnt been doing too well. my lowest was 191lbs and now my current hw is 206 =/ (big fuckin sigh there) Yeah i know im a fuck up.... But seriously thats how ive been feeling lately...well for these past 2 weeks anyway. before now i was ( Read more... )

Ok, I know, I know it has been a really looooonnnnnnnnngggggggg time since I posted. I've had a lot of stuff going on and I havent really been on but about 3 times in about 2 months. I havent been doing good at all really so I didnt see any point of posting my failure. Today I weighed in at 199.4 thats way too close to 200 for me so I'm kinda ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while mostly because I haven't been doing to hot. For a while I was focused and you couldn't pay me to fall off track, but now Im practically a lost cause. Today I got on the scale and,well,to be frank it wasn't my friend. Everytime that happens I tend to throw everything out the window and say fuck it I might as well just eat ( Read more... )

I got on the scale and the bitch said 200.6lbs. What a slap in the face. So, today like the fat ass that I am I eat instead of going to work out. I ate a shit load of calories so I'm not really looking forward to getting on the scale in the morning. O, and I didn't exercise! Hopefully it won't be too bad and I already made plans to go to the gym so ( Read more... )

Hey Everyone, well, today was finally the day I got into the 1's! Can you believe it? I sure as hell can't, its been so long. It's actually weird looking at the scale and not seeing that big 2 staring back at me. The actual reading was 198.6lbs. I'm trying not to get too excited, because at this point I could easily slip right back up there again, ( Read more... )

In case u didn't read the subject line, I fell of the wagon. I had pasta! What a idiot. I know it's done and I cant go back and knock the fork out of my hand, but it still hurts. The only person I let down was myself. I was doing soooooooo good and actually proud of myself for a change. I could even see a difference. Now even if tomorrow I do lose ( Read more... )