i just ended a 3 year relationship.....and im taking it relatively well. I dont know thats it has HIT me all that much. I am just shocked right now. And to top it all off from a really crappy day, i just got into a HUGE fight with my dad, it couldnt get any worse.

I have had the worst fucking day ever. Okay, for one, my friend liz got a guys number at a red light. WTF! That would never ever ever happen to me, ever. So she procedes to say "Omg, i feel so awesome, that doesnt usually happen, omg, im cute, omg im not ugly this makes me feel SO good about my self" Thanks Liz thanks for making me feel like SHIT ( Read more... )

i hate myself, i hate relationships, i hate men, i mean boys and everything in between. Is it so wrong to not dress up for my BF everytime i see him? Am i allowed to wear shorts and a t-shirt. God forbid i dont look sexy for him, even though thats not what he means.... yeah thats a crock of shit. "oh, honey, when you dress up it makes me feel good ( Read more... )

So i got my Scholars program paperwork today and i have no idea what classes i want to take, especially because all the ones i do want to take are for "nonscience majors". Thats BS.  It definitly feels like crunch time now and for the first time I am actually getting a little nervous for college, mostly acedemic worries. What if i cant pull through ( Read more... )

yeah so i took an online shyness quiz, i was bored, dont hate. 1 was not shy at  all and 5 was shyness to a mental level. I was 4.3........ 
I know i am shy, so what? Just because i dont think i can recall a time on my life when i have ever raised my hand in class doesnt mean i am mental, right?
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-HYPERVENTILATING-  O_O   I JUST GOT INTO THE OU SCHOLARS PROGRAM!!!! OMFG, WTF? ME? I HAVENT BEEN THIS EXCITED IN A LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNGG TIME!  -DIES-  X_X

I AM FUCKING DONE! It was seriously the other day that i saw that totaly cool punk chick at freshman orientation with the awesome name. Time could have not gone by any faster. Is college gonna go this fast?  I am no longer in HIGH SCHOOL! It feels good, i think. I dunnno, i keep saying i'm done but it hasnt hit yet. YAY SUMMER!

How awesome is my new icon? Most Lolzy. Thanks again
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Thats all, I'm on break and i still ahve to get up early.WTF I seriously cant wait for summer. 
I still have 5, count them, FIVE, AP essays to write and i havent mustered enough will power to get started on them. 
Well, something before summer to look forward to is Senior Project, i guess i'll still have to get up early, becuase i wanna shadow my Bio ( Read more... )

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