i must be mean and that is why i do no good in my life. i sit here in the dark wondering what to do. i am thinking right now. one thing i think is if i should eat or not, i am hungry but i do not want the fat. i really wish i could find out where life was going with me. but i cannot. so many things unknown. i am unsure about everything in my ( Read more... )

for one of alex's birthday gifts i took him to chicago.  we went shooping.  to the cheescake factory. had chicago style pizza.  thai food.  saw bums.  art insitute.  i touched a some of the paintings.  hotel.  shopping.

( here is some pictures )

i miss my friends!! at least i hope they are still my friends...

Happy Birthday to Alex!!!! Happy Birthday to you!!! Happy Birthday dear Alex!! Happy Birthday to you!!! Alex turned 21 today...he is still young and fresh and i love him soo!!! happy Birthday love!!!

( go on my pet )

life is so unpredictable. its confusing. my life is confusing. i do not get it. i do not get why i am here? do i seem to be afraid to leave and fail...yes. i am afraid to leave what i have here. which isn't much. but i cannot loose him. it his time right now. my time will be later. right now i need to just go on with life. figure out how ( Read more... )

what the hell why is it snowing out?? ok slushing...but its snow! i hate it here i really want to live somewhere warm like florida or california....but i would have to have alex's opinion. he is sleeping right now. he is so cute (my lover ( Read more... )

yesterday: i painted. bought a router. showered. drove. not much else.

today: i feel plump. it was 80 degrees at work. i wore a skirt. my shoes hurt my feet. i had a BLT. i folded my underwear and socks. i showered. i drove. i had a jamocha shake.

tomorrow: school. shower. eat. drive...for what seems like forever. and then

ok so me trying to figure out how to add a link in my entry is not working. i just realized i turned my page blue and so i had to re-do all my colors. man i need to shop and then come back to playing with the puter. but i still need help on how to add a link...man i feel a lil ditzy cause i can't remember how...boo!!

it is remarkable that i am not bald, considering all the hair that comes out of my head after i brush it. am i the only one that thinks this or do others think this when they brush their hair ( Read more... )