an unexpected change of heart brings me back to this. the best parts of lonely. you cannot trust anyone but yourself. calling someone an ex-boyfriend is another way of calling them a dickhead. or a douche bag, or a cocksucker..whatever the case may be. i wanted it this way.

its finally getting nice out. it sorta makes me care less about my poor grades, the job that makes me feel like a tool, and other crap ( Read more... )

my chest is exploding and my ribs are collapsing at the same time.

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? dieting and being a non drinker. neither lasted long ( Read more... )

the last time you'll eat at your favorite restaurant together. was it his favorite? he never said. one of the many things he never said. the last goodbyes, the last time he'll see your face spotted red and wet with the reality of losing him. the last "im sorry" that would be offered by either of you. your life with him flashes before your eyes. you ( Read more... )

ah. leaves are falling, mornings are now quite cold and i cant stop eating. winter is coming ( Read more... )

i cant eat, i cant sleep, im having trouble functioning like a normal human being. at least im feeling something.

can you think about a future when the past is present?

work is terrible..some guys tipped me $60 and told me to put it in my pocket.. i couldnt do that, because all bartenders share tips..those bitches only gave me $15 total because im "training".
fuck.
im tired of being angry all the time.

he's like the smell that comes from the vents when you have just turned the heat on for the first time in six months ( Read more... )

if all goes as planned i will be here in less than one week..

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