Theres more confusion than ever. You know in movies when theres a bunch of signs at a crossroads and all the arrows point in different directions? Yeah right now theres just arrows and no DESTINATIONS. And Im getting tired of going down the clear and obvious path. All I wanted in my life was adventure. A giant leap into the unknown with no clue of ( Read more... )

Well i must say tonight certainly came out of left field for me. I suppose being alone allows you to have the freedom to do things you normaly wouldn't do as a first choice. But since im in somewhat of my own little world, not by choice, I thought i'd say "What the fuck" and just go for it. After work i stopped to visit my aunt at her shop and ( Read more... )

Though very helpful to others, my dream books never seem to be able to help me. The last couple nights have been hell. And I tried telling Cynthia that despite getting a full nights sleep I wake up from these dreams and feel exshausted. Like my mind can't rest. I didn't think working 2 jobs would effect me this way, they are just so different I ( Read more... )

I don't see as clearly as I used to. I thought my vision was fine. I have 20/20 but I feel like I miss so much. Answers that are right infront of me go un-noticed. Its like I dwell so much on not knowing the outcome or the answers that I can't see them when they arrive. I don't want this anymore. I don't want to feel the same thing I've felt for so ( Read more... )

Im ready to go ( Read more... )

I'm inlove with someone. For the first time in my entire life. I never believed in "love at first sight" but since the moment i laid these eyes, of mine, on him there was something, and im not saying it was love but it grew into something more than just feelings. It became almost physical. The way he made my heart feel like it dropped to the bottom ( Read more... )

I miss the times when I didn't feel nauseous all the time. Like maybe if i throwup all my problems they'll leave my heart alone. Thats a stupid thought though b/c the only thing that'll come up is stuff in my stomache. whatever is ripping at my soul won't come out as easily ( Read more... )

Imagine trying to plan your life and being told part of it was going to be taken from you in 2-4 months. Its just not enough time to live.

Theres no place like home for the holidays ( Read more... )

Today I thought it would be fun to see what 17 year old me had to say. and here it is ( Read more... )