It was brought to my attention today that at some point between December 23, 1986 and the ever progressing moment in which I now exist, I made the decision to be a homosexual. Well ok actually it would be more like between December 23, 1986 and August something or other 2005 when for the first time I threw a boy on the couch and didn't come up for ( Read more... )

It's strange to me as we pop like ping pong balls around the bare cream classroom telling our ultimate dream jobs, how few people have thought about it. Did they not daydream about it as children, or did they simply forget it as they have continued down the narrow and practical road to adultdom, or possibly worse, are they too embarrassed to speak ( Read more... )

Worst feeling in the world: Seeing your friends, and/or any person that you love, hurting and not being able to do anything to help.

This growing up thing is tricky and last night was incredibly humbling. Despite all our hightech gadgets that enable us to be a million places without ever going anywhere, there's nothing equal to real human

My mind is and has been racing at a new record high speed for sometime now, finally culminating in my breakdown into uncontrollable sobs this evening. Outwardly fine one minute, drenched and puffy the next. I'm scared to sleep because my dreams give me anxiety and I don't want to wake up because then the dreams aren't just dreams. I am 21 yeard old ( Read more... )

I am continually amazed at and by the people who cross the path of my life. Brilliant. Loving. Inspirational. Flawed. Infectious. Teachers. God if I could translate the inner smile and energy I have right now, it would probably light at least a midsize city. I personally know everyone who reads this (I think, anyway) so I think it's ok to say ( Read more... )

I'm fully aware that I sound terrible in saying this but...i'm going to say it anyway. I'm really glad that a lot of people are open-minded and ok with homosexuality these days. I certainly don't envy those who have had to live through a time when it was much more negatively thought of, BUT I absolutely cannot stand people fawning over my "gayness ( Read more... )

...please don't make me go back...

I haven't written in here in a long time, although that's not for lack of wanting too. A million times I've almost come to this thing to talk about the circles going on inside my head, but each time decided against it for fear of solidifying my thoughts by putting them down in words. So why am I choosing to write in here now then one might ask? ( Read more... )

I have changed so much from the person that I was just a year ago, and although I don't always enjoy it, I AM always proud of it. :-)

Everything is so empty. My bathroom, that little space next to my bed, my bed, the passenger seat of my truck. I know, I know, it sounds silly, but there's really no way to explain it. It's pretty easy to get used to having your best friend, confidant, and lover there with you a nearly all of the time...and then when they're suddenly not there... ( Read more... )