only this time you weren't there to love me back. And even though the images are so vivid, and i can smell your sweet skin, i know that our time together in eachothers arms only exist in my dreams now. My headspace echoes like an auditorium after screaming your name at the top of my lungs, and though my health is consistent..i still feel like I am ( Read more... )

this is my last night in waldorf...

bye livejournal.

i can still feel your shape when you lay down next to me ( Read more... )

the snow creaks under your feet ont he fragile wood of our back stairs im sitting alone wrapped in crawl spaces and broken melodies heard through thin walls. please forgive me. i just want you to stick around long enough to realize that im worth all of the trouble i cause because im sure that i will fuck this all up somehow so dont let me get away ( Read more... )

Always such a fucking struggle. Keeping my chin up, smiling at all the things that are beautiful. Seeking clarity. Everything is going to be okay. It already is. Even amidst the terrible things that happen, that still happen, that are happening... there is still a place I can be where I am happy and at peace. I don't even have to ignore the outside ( Read more... )

So here I sit in bed awake and I'm contemplating ripping up your memories I have of being your friend when you were in need.
It's hard to breathe or keep my hands still when all I see in the back of my mind is you in bed with my missing angel, fucking her again.
Are you sorry?
I don't care.
All that I believed you've turned into a lie and this love ( Read more... )

I got a blog comment today and I wanted to respond publicly.

I was sent this link http://dradamsfilms.com/
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I'm still too far away from being the healed, recovered person I want to be. The person who doesn't long for the way things used to be, the person who isn't angry with those who have wronged me, the person who isn't in disgust for the people that can't even fathom how they have wronged me because their heads are so far up their asses... I admit my ( Read more... )

It's a sad realization to reach that someone just may be all talk... that they just may be empty in their promises... It gives me this vision of my world turning gray while the infected, dark, night sky slowly falls and consumes me... kind of like the earth decaying or the universe graciously dying... such a vivid, clear movie that plays in my head ( Read more... )

I don't know what happened to me.
I just know something happened in my heart to make me this way.
I don't deserve it but it's supernatural.

Glory.