I really need to stop drinking so much.

I made an idiot out of myself last night. and the night before that. and last weekend.

a lot of shit has been going on in my life lately. everythings pretty fucked up. i've been trying really hard not to get depressed. in turn, i end up just being really fucking obnoxious, or just plain bitchy and cruel. (to those that this has affected, i really do apologise) i'm graduating this year, and pretty much failing all of my classes. in ( Read more... )

"we run in circles long distances
we can't get lost in towns like this
with all the same stores everywhere
in the same squares

the light pollution fills our cells
we pick our battles but don't pick well
we run ourselves to death
we're nowhere yet"

I cant stop listening to this song.

i wish i didnt have so many problems.

today i am going to look for a job more.
i hope this week goes by fast. although i'm sure it wont.

it really feels like everyone is playing a mean joke on me. i dont even smoke and i've been sitting in my room getting high for the past three days because theres nothing else to do and i have nobody to talk to. arthur was supposed to call me yesterday, but he sent me a text in the middle of the night saying he fucked up his phone. i feel like i'm ( Read more... )

i have to go to the doctor today. >:(

but i'm going salsa dancing with mannie tonight. :D

i'm going to make a fool out of myself.

I am such a jerk. I hate it when it's hard to figure out whether letting someone you really love go is better for them than sticking around. I dont make a very good friend, as I dont have much to offer. I dont have a car or job or any money and I'm insensitive and irrational. And apparently annoying.

I went to Chris's house the other day, asking ( Read more... )

i dont use this very frequently anymore. or at all ( Read more... )

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