this weekend took a lot out of me. i feel so empty inside. my heart was filled with love for so long and now its just empty and angry. im going to go see a counselor, i cant deal with this on my own anymore.

I feel really good today! and Im really excited to go visit my FAU and friends! see you guys tomorrow!

i am so busy right now and it is wonderful. my room mate bitches about everything i do and dont do and i really dont care anymore... is that wrong of me? so what im never home.... who wants to be home when all you do is get bitched at. so what i dont go out and party with you.... i dont go out and party at all. i go to school, study, study with my ( Read more... )

I have been crying for the past 7 months, and right now i cant stop, but soon. soon i will be able to look up again.
i just wish this part weren't so lonely.

SO yesterday was my 21st birthday! and it was as good as it could have been under the circumstances.  I want to say thanks to everyone who said happy birthday, i appreciate the effort in trying to add to my happy birthday!

i gave it my best shot. but i guess sometimes thats not good enough. im sorry you feel that way.

but i love you. and thats good enough for me.

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thats how i feel.

why cant i have a normal fucking life?
why cant i have a family that loves me, friends who are around, a boyfriend who cares and is there for me. its all too fucking much to ask.
if only i had the fucking balls.

Im worried about my parents. theyre getting old and its starting to show. at this point i dont know how much longer ill have them around and it scares me to death. the only reason why im putting this on here is because theres no one here for me to talk to this about. my parents health is fading: their eyesight, hearing, overall health, memory... ( Read more... )

today was so productive!!!!!!!  Gus gus and I went and got our new apartment... well we arent moving in until JULY 20TH but its still going to be ours and we even have the new address ( Read more... )