So, this is it. Good bye to everything that was my life for the last two years. Good Bye.

I'm hating life more more right now, i don't know why, but i am. Tookk out my alternator and try to put the new in, and go figure, wrong damn size, go figure.

I'm really starting to believe that fate is doing everything it can to make me quit at life.

MOTHER FUCK ( Read more... )

Who am I, cuz i don't know antmore. The person I was died a horrible painful death that was full of misery and sorrow. I have a few friends, but even that only seems to barely stem back the loneliness of my life currently. There is a giant void in my heart that i try to fill with drunken hapiness and love for video games, but in the last few ( Read more... )

This will be my last post to this. I'm tired of causing those near and dear to me to hate me. Sorry Andrea if i'm pissed off, but what was my life has entierly come crashing down around me. As for Ben, he keeps his problems to himself, so shhall i, nobody needs to know what is wrong with, for nothing positive will come of it ( Read more... )

OK, so i thought i was doin better, fuck no. Even if Andrea wanted to ever get back with me, i'm not i could do it, for all the shit i have put myself through because of her. Oh, and now that shes not with me, yeah now she is doin things that i tried to do in our relationship, go to hell. Thursday i was completely ready to die. And I almost did ( Read more... )

So who the fuck realy cares about me? only a very small amount of ppl. For the last few days I have been thinking about killing myself, i even took a very sharp knife from work in which to do it with. think i'll do it later today. I just got suspended from work, probably gonna get fired. Andrea is all kinda cutsie with her new toy. God I ( Read more... )

So another week, what the hell am i still doing? Work has been getting slowly better, not that anyone who will read this gives a shit ( Read more... )

well another day, another bad post, hehe. Work has been slow since i started again, which is not good for my pocket, it will hopefully start too pick up. The car has a couple of problems, but i should be able to fix. Now i just need to concentrate on finding a new place to live. I need to talk to ben and ray on monday or tuesday about it. ( Read more... )

I am stasting to feel lonely again, like everyone just want to ignore me, i read a certain persons LJ, and i really wish i hadn't, i hurts so much, and her friend is starting to fucking piss me off. I feel like there is still hope for me and andrea, but i feel like ashley is pulling us apart ( Read more... )