Hmmm why does it suprise people I can take things slowly? I told Ben about how I'm making sure I do everythign by the bok in this relationship, don't rush and screw it up and he was shocked, said thats unlike you and carried on with his conversation.

I still don't know why I'm making a big deal of stuff. Just because I'm trying to be different so ( Read more... )

Well this weekend has been goood. if not totally crazy ( Read more... )

Well geno was suprisingly not too bad! I actually enjoyed most of it, except the illness. I thought maybe it was the dodgy msot likely out of date archers, but today my mom is ill so its probably that! I felt like such a geno whore throwing up on the way home!!! felt like i was about 13 again, wasn't good! At least i didn't  I didn't throw up in ( Read more... )

OO my top came ... i love internet shopping, it jsut appears at your door, so exciting.. except they forgot my free gift wrap : (

I feel I lost it last night so sorry bryn and ollie, even thought you don't know about this journal he he ( Read more... )

Well brynny has asked me to go to geno. Well apparently john was meant to but hasn't, nice and encouraging! So anyway I said I would go if Andrew (his real name : O) did but as he's working he can't so i don't know whether there's much point going at all. Gems going and I imagine dan will etc. It will be funny to see poddles try carry off his two- ( Read more... )

Its not fair.. how hot is my fairy??? I'd love to look like that!!!

I've been silly to get worked up.
My problem is that i'm jsut miserable when i'm not with blondie, but when i'm with him every single worry dissappears and i don't even think about it. But when i'm not with him i jsut worry that i'm not good enough and that he doesn't like me as much as i like him.

but all thats silly. it's perfect

"Cause everything inside me looks like ( Read more... )

i know this is the 4th today, but most were pointless.

but some twat, who i wont name jsut said to me "so when are you going to msake your realtionship special, you can't leave it to long you know" not only did that wind me up, he did it purposelly to wind me up, to test me.

i jsut dont see why anyone would purposly decide to hurt me?! they know