Have you ever just questioned something. I had an in depth conversation with Brandon yesterday about religion. He has a new found calling and apparently wants to become a Pastor. Which I am very happy for him, that’s awesome. I’m glad he finally found that something in his life to motivate him. The only problem was he said he was worried about me ( Read more... )

My life as of right now is at the best it ever has been! I just passed my permit test! (Congrats to me!) I have an amazing boyfriend who I absolutely love with all of my heart. I have a decent job. I feel like I'm finaling entering the world as an equal instead of an outsider looking in. Although I suck at this whole driving thing so far, but ( Read more... )

The summer is coming to a close. I wish it could go on like this forever. I don't want him to leave i know it is going to happen whether I want it to or not but I just wish that there was an alternative route. Three and a half months is a long time to be away from someone especially someone you love. There is the cliché quote "Absence makes the ( Read more... )

The infamous Nisa called me last night! Why… I was wondering that myself. She called from a payphone while she was out with Phil and she asked how Phil and I were. Then she told me to treat him right( the audacity!); and then I asked her why she was calling she brushed off my question and just said treat Phil good and hung up the phone. Stupid ( Read more... )

School has ended and now we have an entire two months of freedom before it all begins again. I went to P.V. graduation last Thursday and I saw Colin for the first time in almost six months. I wanted to reach out and touch him to make sure he wasn’t a figment of my imagination. I have so many questions for him. Is he still with Ashley? What is his ( Read more... )

Do I believe in love?

Ahhhhhh!!!!! I feel like I’m on the roller coaster from Hell! All I want is for everything to be ok! I don’t understand why it can’t? Why is it always an issue when it’s in my life? I really like Phil isn’t that normal to like boys. Then why in my little bubble of shit does the chaos emanate from it like helium seeping out of a balloon? I don’t ( Read more... )

I AM SOOOO TIRED!

Plugh and a half! I’m at home being deprived of friendship time because my mother dearest decided to re-insert the stick up her bum. Why... this is a good question and I will ponder it; solving it would b another task for another time. Why does my mother always have an urge to be completely horrible? I really wish I knew the answer to all of my ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is my first Prom ever! I am so excited and I just can’t hide it I’m about to loose control and I think I like it. Wahoo and a half. It’s going to be a blast. Where did the word Prom come from anyway? Is it from the word promenade? Just wondering…Yippee! I’m in some ways nervous… excited but with the draw back of anxiety. I like Tim so much ( Read more... )