So I often say I hate my life, and I wish it was over, but I really don't. I just hate the things in my life ( Read more... )

so I have this new girl! And I'm scared that this girl wont accept me for the idea that I smoke. well I just watched his movie and I realized that  I need to tell her and see what comes about. I want to tell her everything, but I will tell her the things that that I'm so scared about. Please prey that she will accept me!

So it is a new year ( Read more... )

I’m so glad that the only friends I have on LJ don’t post anymore, so I’m going to say this with an open heart/ drunken heart. I’m going through the steps of the classic relation ship… no kiss on the first date, and I walked her to her door on the second till I kissed, and this girl is amazing! She so far makes me realize that all those drunken ( Read more... )

So I never really tell situations out, but today I will. Maybe saying it will make it all better, or at least let me read it when I’ve not been drinking, and well let me look at it in another way:

There is this girl I met that I worked with a little less than 2 years ago. She was amazing. She was everything I ever wanted. The only problem ( Read more... )

In one might I felt like I got everything I ever wanted, to find out the next day that it only was for one night:

My Post Secrets:


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Just so everyone, or the only one, who reads my page, I’ve gotten back to the state where I’m completely numb again, no more pain… yeah … I guess I really do need to realize that I was meant to help others. I was not meant to be helped. I’m strong enough to do it by myself! If there is one thing, or the only thing, that I know, it is that fact! I ( Read more... )

I’ve come to the conclusion I will never love. I don’t think I ever did love; I just got involved with a person who I thought would be there. I don’t want anyone to listen anymore. I want someone to react. I want someone to be in the moment that I feel when I tell them what is wrong, not someone who says anything else like “is that all”or, “I’m ( Read more... )

I hate life. But I’m not going to give in. NO ONE IS THERE. I called two numbers I never though I would call:

x-girlfriend
1.800.784.2433

I guess she was right, I am hopeless…

You know what hurts the most about my life? I have been with people who I honestly think do care and I can’t be with them. I find a girl I like who it isn’t  like that and I bottle it up, and it still doesn’t work anymore. I GIVE UP!