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Fate or destiny or something like that
If we've had a good year we get bonuses if not we don't. Last year I saved most of mine and was going to spend $200 on these shoes I had been wanting.
The day of the online shoe purchase I got an email from a charity I had been thinking of giving money to. The email was right before Thanksgiving and mentioned that the charity was short on ( Read more... ) -
Making Kitties Happy
I’ve started to crochet again and yesterday attempted to make a mouse. The plan is to make these mice with catnip and stuffing in them so they can be cat toys. While at Michelle’s last night I finished off most of my first “tester” mouse (without catnip), I did a cat test using Mocha and showed it to her… sure enough she picked it up in her mouth ( Read more... ) -
Smashing Pumpkins Meet and Greet... Photo!
It finally got posted! I'm so glad I went on day one instead of day 2 because on day 2 they literally sat on the stage the whole time and I would rather them standing. I'm totally snubbing Jimmy in this photo...oops. I thought I was beside Chad but apparently not =/ Chad and Jimmy = black shirt gang, Billy and I = striped scarf gang.
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Casey's Song
One night in late 2004 I picked up my guitar and with Casey beside me I wrote her a song. I have no record of how to play this song and don't care to remember. I know how it is sung in my head and only Casey and I will forever know how it goes exactly.
oh my little Casey
Come here I'll hold you tight
Without you how can life be right
Little Casey
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I'm totally a mess.
list of problems:
I'm forgetting things that just happened a minute before
I'm unmotivated to do anything
I'm dreaming reality
I'm going into nightly coma's
I'm hardly eating
I view my bedroom as a gloom zone... my whole house for that matter.
I have no balance
The plus:
I can look at pictures of Casey and smile instead of burst out crying
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I just got worried.
I hope Casey never felt like a nuisance because she wasn't. The demanding of snuggles, water or having to give her the meds she required was never ever a problem and I would do it all forever.
It just happened! I looked up at Casey's picture with a smile on my face and now know that everything is going to be alright.
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RIP Casey Jane 1990-2007
I had to put my baby to sleep last night. 16 years old, diabetic (which was totally under control) and as we found out cancer. It was her time she was telling me and for a week I didn't realize but when I saw her last night (after the count down to her execution) she wouldn't look at me... she just looked away. She was in pain and there was ( Read more... ) -
at this point in time....
that at 7:30pm I am going to be signing papers to say yes to putting Casey down. there is pretty much nothing that can be done currently and she is suffering. I'm trying so hard not to cry at work but the type of crying trying to come out is the "omg I can't breathe" kind ( Read more... ) -
I'm broke
I'm also a fucking mess still. Picked up Casey this morning and she looked better but she still could die at anytime is what they keep telling me. My heart is breaking... I can feel it in my chest... my chest is so freaking sore. They had to cancel the ultasound because I couldn't come up with the for $1000 for the guy. I came up with most but ( Read more... )
