*sigh* can I close my eyes and have it been october?

Ok, so Ryan has done all of his intake crap and guess what they asked him in part of it that supposedly they ask everybody that gets sent to prison for ANY crime. "Would you consider being castrated?" um... NO! I would like to keep my balls thanks you. And out of like 5 states that allow that, texas is the only one that goes for actually ( Read more... )

Lucas was born 10-24-07 at 8am. Yay!

I fucking hate collin county texas. No one under any circumstances ever move there EVER. the people that live there are just plain stuck up dickheads that refuse to see things for how they really are. FUCK THEM. Because of the Ryan is in prison. His sentence is for 10 years, but his lawyer said he should be out in 2 1/2 to 3 1/2 years. I guess ( Read more... )

Ryan's trial is set to take place on Monday, assuming the murder case that's booked for the same time isn't ready to start yet... if it is then his case gets put on hold until that's over? It's so dumb. His lawyer gave him a choice today, go through with the trial and if the jury finds him guilty the judge will probably be fairly strict with him ( Read more... )

Ok, on Ryan's weekend visit we decided on a name for baby #2 finally. Lucas Micah Gurwell.

No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to put my real feelings into words right now. I wish I had my old councelor to talk to... she helped a lot, then I got a new one that couldn't understand that most the time I'm not sure how to put my thoughts into words, and when I'm in a depression mood, I honestly don't know what will help. She was dumb ( Read more... )

ok, so I haven't written anything in a while. Well lets see, I"m sure some of you would be happy to find out that I"m in AZ again. But only until about September. But I'm in Phoenix because I don't want to live in the same city as my family. Anyways... things are going ok. Andrew is 2 now, and full of way too much energy ( Read more... )

fuck...you...all...

6 more days! yay!