Comments | unmotivated8: Fat

unmotivated8

Fat

Feb 24, 2011 18:52

I feel terribly fat today. I ate a personal pizza for lunch and saw this guy I knew freshmen year (he went on a two year mission and is back now). He was sitting with his friends and I was sitting at a table all by myself eating pizza and mustard (don't judge me). I saw him, but I was really hoping he wouldn't recognize me. It would make me feel ( Read more... )

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ski_to_live February 25 2011, 02:09:28 UTC

First, I wanted to give you congrats for making it 10 (I think now, right?) days without purging! That's such a great step in the right direction! I'm so proud of you, I know how hard it's been for you. Just think of it this way...purging will make you feel better right now, right? But if you don't, you'll feel better about that for longer.

You're doing great, hun <3

unmotivated8 February 27 2011, 21:15:06 UTC

Thanks, luv. I faltered the other day, but I'm doing better now. I've decided I need to live. Really live so I can be happy. And by living I mean actually doing my homework and stuff, haha.

How have you been?

ski_to_live March 1 2011, 02:45:31 UTC

Hey, girl, mistakes happen. Good for you for not dwelling on it, though! It's all part of the process.

Oh, and I have a comment to make on the food thing you were experiencing with this post:I hate that feeling that people are judging you by what you eat. When I tell people that my husband and I live mainly off pasta, they always say something along the lines of "but you're SO THIN!" And it actually hurts really bad. (Like, they DO NOT know the trauma that goes into me being "SO THIN". It suckes. I wanna sucker punch them.) But then when I go to a coffee shop and I order a Bhakti Chai with skim milk because the skim milk masks the taste of the spices in the chai less than whole does, I feel like people are judging me for that order as well...

Is it all in our heads? Or are people just rude assholes? I think...it's a mixture of both.

And I'm very well, thanks :) Getting along. Did an uphill/downhill ski race with my hubby yesterday and won!

unmotivated8 March 1 2011, 03:40:59 UTC

People do judge us by what we eat. Maybe not everyone, but it seems like "health" is such a big part of our culture that we feel like we know what "health" is and if we don't do "healthy" things or eat "healthy" things then we're fat, horrible people. It's really frustrating. It's something that my professors try to teach us because if we as dietitians make comments about what people tell us that they eat, then no one is going to want to talk to us. It's eye opening. I really need to learn not to judge people by what they eat. But it's so hard!!! Because I have these weird behaviors with food and misconceptions from my ED. It's hard for me to hear someone say they ate a humongous hamburger and milkshake without worrying about their weight, cholesterol, and fat intake!!! And then the snowball effect takes hold and I worry about them getting cancer!!! I'm gonna be a great dietitian, haha ( ... )

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