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I think I'm fine now. I think my brain's self-defence mechanism kick-started itself and I'm now desperately moving on. I can think about Opa and his burial without my eyes tearing up and I've slept fine tonight ( Read more... )

Everything hurts. My head, my stomach, my heart. But the tears won't come.

Does this mean I'm at peace?

I don't want to stand in the pity-line.

The very idea is cruel and heartless, no matter how good people make it seem. I'm talking about the line the family forms after the burial, so that people can shuffly by and shake hands and take pity on every single family member without missing a single one. They'll gush about how sooooorrryyyyy they are ( Read more... )

Well, at least he died the way he wanted to. Just like that and gone. No long road of suffering or pain. But it's so hard, so surreal. I can't believe it. Just like that and I have no grandpa's left ( Read more... )

No more grandpa's.

Grandpa is in the hospital and I'm having a tiny internal meltdown. He woke up feeling sick and his face was grey and now, he's in the hospital ( Read more... )

Totally TMI, but I've been on birthcontrolpills pretty much from the beginning of womanhood. It was bad enough to have to go through agonizing pain each month, but to be caught off guard by it every damn time.....It's just inconvenient.

Enter the pill.

I have (or used to have) a three-fases medium-pill called Tryginon. It was a pleasant one, ( Read more... )

Another Februari 24th, another year of my life to call my own. Slowly, but surely, I'm inching my way to the bad side of twenty. Still free at heart and young of spirit. Still full of hopes and dreams, but not much wiser. (Theehee!) Time was gone before I knew it; it seems like only yesterday that I sang to myself on my 21th birthday ( Read more... )

I'm going to bitch about something again, so run for cover, lock the door, bend over and kiss your ass goodbye! Seriously...If I were you guys, I'd get pretty sick and tired of having to read about my whining little problems. So, if no one reads this, it's okay. I wouldn't either.

Anyway!

Let me tell you something about my sister in law, ( Read more... )