Today would have been 2 years...I'm not dealing with it well.. It just kills me that this is so much easier for him...that his life is better now.. I just want to be over this stage..I want to be past heartache...I don't know how much more of it I can take..

My friend's brother passed away yesterday... I haven't seen or talked to her...she went back to Orlando and isn't answering any texts or calls...I just hope she knows how much I'm here for her..She was there for me when I need it and I hope she knows she can come to me now that she needs it ( Read more... )

Oh no...come and go as you please...I don't have feelings or anything..

I have an exam in 2 hours that I have not studied for...and I DON'T CARE! haha I hate this fricken class and I just want a B...

Christmas party tonight...I'm super excited! I've got my christmas snowman headband and my green glow stick wand ready! ha...can't wait to see the Ambers and try out Leila's jell-o shots. woo!

I want to semi edit my thoughts on my last journal.... Okay so maybe I don't understand what comes out of FEELING this way...but one thing that has happened since .."it happened"...I've been seeing friendship in a lot more people...Leila's roommate and I have become pretty good friends because I spend more time over there...Kyle's sis and I also ( Read more... )

I've always thought that things happen for a reason...like when Brad and I broke up...I thought---okay I went through all of that so I'd be stronger...so that I'd be more open and truthful about how I feel...but why did this happening? What could possibly come out of feeling like this?...

Like everything else--doesn't make sense to me

mind or heart? logic or love?.... I think the latter always wins...

anyway in better news..Jack's Mannequin this weekend..I'm suppppper stoked--jazzed--excited...all those good things.

It's over... really...

i can't breathe.

I'm so tired of stupid drunk people.

I'm so tired of stupid math professors.

I'm so tired of doing homework that is not really teaching me anything that I'm going to need in my life.

I'm so tired of hearing the question "are you okay?"

I'm so tired.

Yesterday was the first day in a year and nine months that I have not heard from him...

I wish the world would stop so I could just lay in bed... f-school

ugh.