For the past thirty minutes I have sat here staring at inanimate objects hoping that they would somehow jump to life or trigger something in my brain that would let my hand write whatever it was the page was supposed to have danced itself into. The last fifteen of these minutes I have been thinking less about actually solving the problem and more ( Read more... )

so right now i want to slap her for being the way she is but i also want to fist fight myself for how she got there. and fuck everyone else who pointed juged or commented on the situation cause they have no fucking clue on what is happening. I honestly feel like this right now lsekjt;slkfjz;lxcvasl;kfjsf;lkjocvijqf;lwknfz;cxnasdvcnw;lekf;lvihja. ( Read more... )

you remind me of home, and it hurts; and as much as i wish you didn't bring that painful happy smile to my face you likely will for a long time. Goodbye, it was fun while we lasted...and a little after that in my head.
p.s. this isn't yours to read but what can i do i am a cad.
William
www.livejournal.com/~loudaspossible

adolescents and innocents. not know when to and when not to. believing so fully that it is right but feeling that it is not. the lingering unknown of youth mixed with the desire of adulthood. being so old at such a young age but really being so young in this over analyzed facade.

With all the swirling and buzzing around I cannot help but to filter it all out or filter it all in I am looking to ignore only you just this once and every other once so that with the overabundance of information streaming from my eyes and ears to the mush in my head the only things that begin to make sense are the things I ignore so when I al ( Read more... )

i think that this option may be a bust but who knows maybe i am just getting ahead of myself anyway it made me realize that there is someone else i would rather be talking to but when i think about it like that everything gets difficult and i cant say anything or interract without thinking that something means something it likely doesn't- end

I heart makeout.

It perturbs me when I think about writing something and before I put it on the page I hate it Performance anxiety I suppose about which performance I could not tell you Cause I hate whining and I will whine about it to you until the cows stand there for long amounts of time mocking evolution This post started in my mind as something about things ( Read more... )

Sometimes everything feels really wrong; the past, the present, the future. All these variables bouncing around in my head, I don't know exactly how I feel or felt. I am at a point very similar to the place i was in the past, that creeping feeling that I am dead or dieing on the inside; yet at the same time I know that i have grown so much in the ( Read more... )

I feel like a human lemming ( Read more... )