well im posting in here because no one reads this, and i want to get this shit outta my head ( Read more... )

ONE ( Read more... )

You only saw the outside, never knew what I was feelin ( Read more... )

this what i wrote to her sister a while back, and now its pretty much over cause she dont believe that i want her ( Read more... )

This is the first time in a long time I am gonna post somethin foreal. Tonight we really talked. We talked about basically how awful of a person I was when I should have shown her how I felt. I always cared about her. I always felt something for her, yet I was too scared of who she was to actually pursue it. I still smell her on my hands. Her ( Read more... )

"It seems to me, you don't realize, what you mean to me"

I don't understand how shit happens like this. I been struggling for so long with who I wanna be. I finally found who i wanna be and now i feel like im fucked no matter what. Im lost again but i kno i gotta finish up school, so im fuckin stuck in shit again.

Nothing has changed. Nothing is gained. Nothing is lost, except my mind.

the last journals have been real small and real vague. I cant really get into everything thats been goin on lately, but it feels like a world of shit ontop of me. i think its all gonna calm down now, cause im gonna try to get some shit straight with me before i start tryin to move forward. i just feel so fucked up lately with everything goin on . i ( Read more... )

I feel so fucked up right now.
I want 2 kno someone is there thinkin bout me.. but i dont want them 2 be thinkin bout me.. i want them 2 kno im there but i dont wanna be there.i just wish it was black and white. i cant go into it. im out pz