im tired damnit. having to go to work the next day of smoking massive buds sucks. im so out of it and i gotta go stand around at work and pretend like i care about peoples stupid rambles about gas prices and stupider shit. i just wanna fucking sleep.

man...i dont know what im doing anymore. what the fuck is my purpose. i hate you. its not right. what happend to us? why are we like this? why do i have to ask why? why do i feel like a immature little bitch brat while i write this. i feel like im the only one who realizes how fucked up and retarded life is sumtimes. i mean it has its benefits, but ( Read more... )

people suck...including myself i suppose. drugs suck. cuz i suck...drugs.

all my shit that was in annies room either got stolen or ripped up. 200 dollers worth of posters and trippy lights, not to mention the sentimental value all fucking gone with no excuse except for crackhead family. so what do i do? destroy everything else that still stands in the house and steal the 2 tvs...gangsta.

change...is a buzzkill

and the blood flow continues! thank you GOD! horay for alchohol destroying our fertile bodies.

how am i supposed to feel?

i despise those of you who dont understand, but i do not hate you. for you do not understand the standings in my life. I do not even know most the time. my life may be a big pile of shit but thats what change is for. allthough some changes are fucked up and have no real motives behind them due to no true motives between differences. hence the ( Read more... )

turns out that sara is a fake fuckin bitch that just wanted to play with me until she got bored and throw me out like a fucking toy. its pathetic. her heart is the most beautiful thing and the most ugly put together. im fucking pissed. i was so comfortable with her, felt such exstacy with her....and i know she did to so whut the fuck. she made me ( Read more... )

ive gaven in and made a god forsaken livejournal.
its nothing now becuz i created it on a fucking
sega dreamcast. i dont have my computer right
now...sooo good stuff, all in good time.