So what else would it be ( Read more... )

I need to express the revolutionary thought that I created yesterday. This is the place that I came to do it. Of all places, I decided good ole livejournal needed to guard this secret ( Read more... )

So I feel that I'm softening up. I've been listening to a song lately on my way to and from school that I've really been connecting with. When I hear it, I picture all the people that I took for granted, all the people that I used for sex, all the people that I made a game out of . . . I picture all the people that I hurt that I didn't sleep with. ( Read more... )

So I try my best to be normal and interactive which is very unlike last semester. This culture is so different from what I'm accustomed interacting with. The adjustment process is taking longer than I would hope. I keep thinking of the end result of my times at Cedar Point and how respected I was as a person and as a leader, and I desire that same ( Read more... )

Thinking of 7 minutes makes me think of smoking. I can smoke a cigarette in a little less than 7 minutes. I used to smoke 2 on a 15. I'm so busy that I spend little time on myself. The only real downtime that I have is on Friday nights when the library is closed, and that time is spent with Luke. Sometimes I feel that I don't want him to come over ( Read more... )

I'm fighting against myself. I struggle. I want to excel, but I'm floundering, and essentially when that happens, I give up. I know that I never won when it came to pushing the opposition (my mother). Maybe I feel that no matter what I do, I'll lose. I don't want to drop a class, but I may have to. I just have to prove that I can do it ( Read more... )

I have far too much bloody homework. I don't understand how to use this fucking Maple shit. They just expect us to figure it out on our own. This weekend we're going to Saugatuck. I'm super happy to get the hell outta town again. My family brings me down, but I'm trying harder and harder to stay positive through it all ( Read more... )

don't come back for me. i've been found. why are you here? to tear me away? do you seek to rip me from the arms of one that truly loves me? you want me one more time do you? you'll leave me in the streets, alone. who do you think you are ( Read more... )

I really hate some things about our country. In particular, I dispise our health care system. Insurance is so damn expensive. I don't have any. So now I have to buy a bottle of eyedrops since I scratched my eyeball. It's going to cost me 80 bucks. Let's charge the hell outta a poor unemployed college student. You have to make more money to pay less ( Read more... )

So my first year back at Maryville College is over. Funny, I think I started this LJ at Maryville College. Well from 02 to 10 I've raised my wretched GPA from a .71 to a 2.41 in just 2 semesters! I really want it to be about a 3.4 by the time I graduate. I've secretly added a third minor without telling my parents or grandmother. I know it seems ( Read more... )