this time around has been 1000 times better. after last time at maryville college, i really felt that i was incapable. i thought my mind was unable to process the difficult contortions required to manage getting through the mentally, morally, and self defining courses set by the college. i have found that i am completely capable and it has yet to ( Read more... )

i've missed live journal. i don't always feel like picking up a pencil and writing things out on paper. it makes my hand cramp and lately i've been writing so much that my hand's been cramping rather frequently ( Read more... )

i have to revamp kurtis with a k. for so long i told people that they first have to love themselves before they can love anyone else. i strongly believe that you cannot love yourself unless you are happy with yourself. you cannot be happy with yourself if there is confusion as to who you are ( Read more... )

i get way too wrapped up on the idea of being perfect. my motivation for doing so is rooted in the idea that if my actions and personality is flawless, then no one can ever become upset with me. I could never be chastised. For ANYTHING! EVER! Now while I am a grown up and I take full responsibility for harboring my own feelings, I blame that one on ( Read more... )

i have more mixed feelings than i care to know ( Read more... )

MIDDLE NAME GAME ( Read more... )

funny
http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Roller_coaster

no. i shouldn't ( Read more... )

they're heavy right now. i shouldn't be tired but i am. i really wanted to stay in bed and continue sleeping.

my mom bought me a couple books to read for V day.
Deception Point by Dan Brown
The Devil in the White City by Erik Larson

funny i never cap anything in here.

i have to go read the iliad before class.

i really am having a hard time.
there are so many negative factors going on and i have two people to blame.

it's winter and we know how i do. it isn't as bad as it could be.

i'm never quite good enough for myself.

i think that i'm going to go home and make brownies :)
and then tutor craig so he doesn't get held back.