i want to so bad. it'd be so easy to just give up on everything and everyone. that's the one thing that i can't do though bc it's everyone that keeps me from doing it.

so tuition was due today in the amount of kurtis has no money. but i have a savings account from my grandmother for school. so i drove an hour to her house and had lunch which was good and got a check. on the way home i realized that she had made it out to me instead of the school. TADAA. came home and they had pushed back the due date till the ( Read more... )

there has been the most amazing marathon on TV this week. audra and i have been glued to america's next top model all week long ( Read more... )

i was sober last night. quit a bit sober. i've been up for a couple hours now and i still have that foggy head feeling goin on. sometimes i'm too much for myself. i think that's my flaw. in music you're always taught that if you want someone to hear something that you're trying to do with your music, you have to try three times as hard, exaggerate ( Read more... )

so i'm currently in OH sitting on audra's couch after a fuckin kick ass time last night at gold coast. my friends have offically made my year. chris bell called me from audra's phone on sat. night and told me that they were on their way from OH to get my ass. i packed in like, 10 minutes, got my shit together and left. 6am, we arrive at home. audra ( Read more... )

i'm writing to be writing. have a couple things on my mind ( Read more... )

i want to go to to detroit for new years. isn't happening. i have no cigs and i can't get any because my car is blocked in. i think that's why my head hurts. i usually don't ever get head aches. this is rare for me ( Read more... )

let's have an uplifting post ( Read more... )

i'm really not in this damn holiday spirit. im just not. it's a few days away and i feel so terrible for wishing that they were already over with. that's just how i am about them this year ( Read more... )

it's shawn's last day in TN. super sad. we had a pretty kick ass time though. i'm still feelin those 6 shots of 100 proof soco. i need to go see what i wrote on my amazing race application while i was smashed.