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which i probably should have guessed but i mean i never thought a guy would be so mean that he fricken pretends to fall asleep so i'll hang up. and everyone who sees this entry will just laugh at me, and laugh and laugh....

i know i'm ugly

i know i'm boring

i know i'm stupid

but how do you expect me to be anything when i'm stuck inside this prision? ( Read more... )

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boys are stupid!!!

i am pissed. i am so sick of being lectured by my parents, by my friends, BY EVERYONE!!! i feel so confused all the time it's like i'm in a constant fog, i havent talked to justin or shane or any of the ppl i wanted to get close to this summer. my close friends are usually busy. i have all these thoughts bouncing around and no way to get rid of ( Read more... )

so i'm up at 1:37am. well life has been better,so i dont know why i'm writing in this. i'm so bad at keeping diaries, i made a real one and i put pictures of all my best friends and wrote lots of stuff about them, it looked really pretty and i didnt even keep up with it. i'm so lame. wow i'm acually starting to get tired, mostly my eyes are hurting ( Read more... )

so i just realized on the last entry when i meant to put "drained" as my mood i ended up puttin drunk lol 

i seriously should just go kill myself no one reads this anymore. well thats prolly cause i dont write in it. but thats because all you imnotgonnasayitandgetmyselfintrouble dont comment anymore. and its a suckie user name so i tend to write in it only when im sad

and right now i wouldnt mind if i were
a)diving off a cliff 
b)driving my car off a ( Read more... )

i'm giving up on everything. as of now i offically dont care about mcas,dont care about my grades,dont care about my license,and i especially don't care about ryan ( Read more... )