uhh everyone just got back from the football game and it sounds like they had fun....i kinda wish i could have gone but i know if went the whole time i would have been thinking of braden and how bad i'd feel for ditching him. espcially since he didnt invite his gf to have a "nice" dinner with us. i guess most of it was nice. too bad i didnt go to ( Read more... )

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im thinking of making this journal friends only so comment if you don't have an lj and still wanna read it

i hate this i cant do anything but listen to music. i can't talk to ppl anymore. i just want this hell to be over. except then another kind of hell begins. AGAIN. why is life so hard?!?!?!

so yeah my party was very fun! and right now i'm listening to mixes alyssa gave me, i think like everyone ended up going on the hot dog! and the rope swing omg ppl loved that! lol and ppl got to stay another hour caused we ordered pizza alittle too late,lol. freaking craig got hot grease on my arm, it hurt like alot. we played alot of pool at the ( Read more... )

so yeah forget about my last entry its all cool now

so yeah braden just comes in at 1 am scaring the crap outta me cause i've gotten used to no one coming in at 12 or 1 ect. and he's acually awake when he's here for like what an hour? which he pretty much spends the whole time making fun of stuff in our family, if he doesnt like our family he can fuck off. considering 1] i'm not even family to him 2 ( Read more... )

so i got to those two places at like 4 am tomorrow and its gonna be really boring. i cant bring my cell cause the balence is low, so yeah fun times, ok too many ims must go, leave lots of love!

i dont know if i did the right thing by breaking up with him...i still think about him alot,i think i might have loved some of him. i didn't even give him a good reason to break it off because the real reason is too horrible. and i already hurt him so much. i feel horrible about it. i wish i could have him back but what if its like this again? i ( Read more... )