Really struggling right now and I have no one to turn to for support. Finding it really hard to eat for the past couple of weeks, and I know I'm just digging myself in deeper by restricting, but everything just seems so hard right now. I'm not sure I want to 'recover' anymore. Digging through all this hard shit is just so draining, and I'm starting ( Read more... )

Ergh. Having such a shitty week and I really just want to curl up into a ball and sleep for days. Or go and hug Jazzy and cry into her mane and sleep in her stable. But no, she is an hour away and I have work all day tomorrow so that's not happening. Guess I'll just put on a smile and pretend everything is fine, just like every other day. Fuck this ( Read more... )

Okay, I really suck at this recovery journal thing ( Read more... )

Sooooo, here we go. I've decided to actually use this journal to document my recovery ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish somebody would just lock me up in treatment until I was recovered, no questions asked. Everything is so damn complicated and I feel so lost ( Read more... )