It was my fault really. It never should have gone as far as it did..I never should have let myself fall. But I did and now all that's left to do is smack my face off the pavement and pick up the pieces of my shattered heart...again. Im getting pretty damn good at it actually. I learned to expect it. Doesnt make it hurt any less or anything though. ( Read more... )

I hate work! I smell like bleach right now hardcore because I had to clean all the damn cutting boards in the deli. It was stupid, I carried those huge ass things all the way over to the sink and scrubbed them with bleach and comet and they still looked the same! It was pointless if u ask me but whatever. And then they had me go run register with ( Read more... )

Ugh I officially hate my life. Seriously...Im thinkin about just fuckin some random guy so CJ will come kill me and just get it over with. Im so sick of everything. All I ever do is work, I mean yeah its nice cuz I have money now but when do I have time to do anything with it?! I just want one night where I can be free from all of this...Im just ( Read more... )

Wow I havent updated this in awhile, but I really needed to talk to someone and since no one is there...I'm gonna try this ( Read more... )

Well I was talkin to CJ the other day and me and him got into an arguement about me going to prom. He seems to think I should go because it's my senior year and if I dont I'll regret it later. Well I dont have the money to go and even if I did...I hate 95% of the people in that school and I can think of so many other things to do on a Saturday than ( Read more... )

Ugh I fucking hate this place! I'm not a little kid, I can take care of myself! I dont need them to fucking protect me from everything, if they shelter me when I leave I'm gonna be so lost. I dont need protection, I need freedom, I need to expierence stuff that is "bad for me". I swear the day I graduate, Im gone, Id rather live on the fucking ( Read more... )

Well my Valentine's Day sucked! I gave "Walter" the shit to give CJ and CJ called me n was all like I loved my gift! So0o0o that was good. He wanted to go to the movies with me since this is his only day off this week, but my mom said I couldn't go cuz Im sick. I was like wtf?! Im unsick enof to go to skool but not to the movies! And its a good ( Read more... )

I havent wrote in here in 4ever, so I figured why not, I'll update lol ( Read more... )

I cant fuckin wait til Im 18

I havent updated this in over a month! Well I got a bf...thats about all thats happened lol

I love u Jess!! lol

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Courtney

I Love CJ!