i been practically living in dover this weekend, and its been amazing. being surrounded by amazing people, espcecailly those of you that i love dearly. crazy ass parties. the rise and fall of park street. its been quite the journey. that place will sure be missed. gahh. soo much to say about it all. but it was just amazinly fun. last night was good ( Read more... )

i love dover! so yes there is a girl and i want her...shes oh so pretty. woah. love in dover.

dover is the place to be this weekend. party last night was def a good time, met some great people and more to meet tonight and tomorrow.
peeing with girls you just met is the best. haha.

apprently i dont sleep anymore, i have no clue what i am doing...i think i zombie out and try to work on homework everyngiht but it doesnt really happen but neither does sleep. things been stressful, but fun somehow too. i think i am making myself sick. oh yes and i am dieting too, a little progress has been made...my face looks skinnier, haha its ( Read more... )

so ya...i am listening to a song, it was a song i listened to after my dad passed away, it makes me really sad. gah...i miss him, god i miss everything. why did things change so much. i am so lost this year, nothing seems to be strong enough to guide me anymore. gahh. i dont know anymore. i need something to cheer me up...

gah so josh and i went out and spent 2 hours looking for costumes, i found cute things that were uber expensive but its stupid cause its like we really have to dress up and i would look stupid too. i am such a fat kid i would look aweful in all the girls costumes cause there all slutty, and ya, i suck at life, i am staying in this year ( Read more... )

i been in a really weird mood lately. slightly depressed but mostly just unmotivated. its jsut a phase though

i went out with josh to grab dinner and see garden state, its a really good movie. i cried. lately there are all these love story kindas movies and ughs, i cant take it anymore. i am growing really weak to it all ( Read more... )

i started up workin with the kids again today. there was this little boy eric and he was sooo adorable. i told him he was strong and he said it cause he drinks milk, isnt that cute. i love these kids, i always leave with a big smile on.
soon ill be having my own kids...well maybe not that soon.

its 3:30 and i just woke up from a nightmare...i was being kidnapped by this freaky man, my heart is still racing and i feel realy uneasy. i hate how real dreams can feel sometime. if it wasnt so late i would go make my mom give me a hug.
grrrrr sigh