so everything is begining to fit itself back together...

new theory developed, in my unique mind again, ask if you want to know...

sweety pie honey bunch, you know that i love you

stop searching forever. happiness is just next to you.

it fits perfectly right now...

i am enlightening myself, and maybe even having an epiphany, and it couldnt feel better i decided a lot of things last night and this morning while talking to a great friend and my best friend, two seperate people, each as great as the other, or at least they come in very close, i decided, drum roll please, that... its for me to know and everyone ( Read more... )

in the past forty five minutes i have decided what path i want to take, what i was so confused about, has become perfectly clear...

so things have to change we tell ourselves time and time again, and if things don't, changes will happen any ways because of it, so either way i look at it something is going to change, you wish you could just fall back and dream. have everything be perfect, nothing wrong, paradise as you see it, but you always have to wake up, there is no forever ( Read more... )

i want to be successful, i want everything, yet i cant see myself getting everything i want, i want to be hopelessly in love and not care about anything else, but if i live like nothing else matters i would be wrong, in life everything costs something, if not money, happiness, and i want to have both the money and the time for happiness, i murder ( Read more... )

maliciousness
deviousness,
jealousy,
manipulation,
perfection,
sexual desire,
compulsive lying,
falseness,
depressive angst,
anger,
secretive,
kink,
strength,
driven,
pain...

last night was a very good night...