you said you hate my suffering
and you understood
and you’d take care of me
you'd always be there
well, where are you now?

haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
the plans were never finalized
but left to hang like yarn and twine
dangling before my eyes

and I once had strength
but I have been selfish
to say the least
I owned up to it
though leaving is a curious way
for you to love me
so my life and my whole waiting guiltI enclose late with my dues to you....

spent monday catching up with my ex-fwb of like a decade (ended b/c he got engaged). and he started reminiscing... "shame i couldn't get a pic but i know that if i did [my wife] would see it ( Read more... )

had a great time with john tonight. couldn't make it to the resort with him so he vid called me from his room at like 2:00 AM... he teased me a lot. total thirst trap. but i'm also getting it... he came so much while watching me rub my pussy... i can't fucking believe i did that... was just telling rick earlier how i never do that - get completely ( Read more... )

your heart is a ghost town
my mind is a nightmare
the more that i reach out
the more that you're not there... 

spent nearly six hours on the phone with sam today <3 rwarrrr. i fucking love him.

basically i'm a piece of shit that doesn't deserve love and let someone get close to me despite knowing that and now i'm inevitably hurting both of us by being me

i was bragging to rick about how i can still remember all the things and then i caught myself, like, shit. hasn't the entire goal been to forget as much as i can? 

repeated that mistake. "i didn't think this would happen again, with or without my best intention ( Read more... )

i can change, if it helps you fall in love
i can be cruel, i can, i can, i can
if it helps you
if it's what you want, violet.

but maybe he's not the best example anymore, he came back... but then he ruined her...