so i made the convictional thought the other week : "I want to write." that is what i'm here to do. start utilizing this again (although i may start a new one - it only seems right to start anew, it's just it's late and i'm tired). that is all ( Read more... )

i like scrunching my nose in the winter (when it is so cold you can feel your skin slowly return to normal ( Read more... )

i am bored, i am stoned, its 430 in the morning and about 2 years since my last post (that long?) hahahah i am such a freaaakin whining bitch, how could you bastards never have told me this before??? thank god i barely used this thing, i dont know if i couldve taken any more selfinflicting pain than i already transcribed and forever recorded (you ( Read more... )

ive been having a pretty shitty month or so, which culminated in me spraining my ankle last night. its not really a big deal at all - i can still hop my way along. its a huge inconvenience of course, but not unbearable. it was just...it was an "of COURSE" - that one really shitty thing that happens after a bunch of crappy things already happened ( Read more... )

how do i flush it out of my system?

fuck me.

right. selfindulgent, i know, but hey. fuck off ( Read more... )

the grass is always greener. see...ive always thought that i never kept journals because my hand gets really tired, and...i mean, lets be honest here, im at the lazy end of the ... laziness...pool. then i have this, where all the goddamn work is done for me, and i still dont do it. so of course, i ran out today and bought this journal that ( Read more... )

i wonder if you turn your heads so loud you will drown out the pain.

and inhale so much on a cigarette you can inhale some goodness.

apparently not.

i saw rebecca in front of trident, she was visiting her sister, it was really good seeing her. she put me in a much better mood.

today felt like october. it was breezy and grey and quiet...you could smell something in the air that said fall was coming to an end and winter would soon set it.

except it wasnt october, because it is most obviously august. at least thats what my calender keeps telling me.

you're nothing but a box of threats.