well i guess im being forced to hurry this process of 'gettin over it' if i ever wanna feell good about myself again, but still it doesnt seem too fair? dont ya think? these circumstances are fcked up.. when will this feeling go away? by the looks of it now from wat has re-develeped.. NEVER.. watever. lifes a bych then you die

i think i literally got 2 hours of sleep this weekend.. so friday i ended up goin out and not raking leaves =D yeah so me kristen and twyla went to the mail and got ther nails did and i went walkin around by my selfff hahaa.. then we went back to cristas and met cris linaa aand jen ther! and we all decided we wanted to go on a haunted hay ridee but ( Read more... )

ok the hair has to go.. it has to.. seriously i fckin hate being a redhead im so sick of it.. one reason bc everyone else can just die ther hair and do watever they want but i cant my fckin mother wont let me touch it i cant even get highlights.. if i die my hair it will never be this color again its not fair. i hate it. im tired out ppl of ppl ( Read more... )

WOW DID I SAY THAT I FCKIN HATE HIM DID I EVER SAY IT CLEARLY ENUFF.. I SWEAR TO FCKIN GOD I JUST WANNA BEAT THE SHYT OUT OF HIM MAYBE BASH HIS HEAD IN A WALL A FEW TIMES AND KNOCK SOME GODDAMN SENCE INTO HIM I FCKIN DONT GET HIM AT ALL.. HE MAKES NO EFFORT TO FCKIN IGNOWLEDGE MY PRESENCE AND THEN WEN HE DOES ITS LIKE I HAVE TO DROP FCKIN ( Read more... )

well yeahh im still pissed about my journal i hate how its uglyy my sis has to fix it ASSAP since i donot knoww howw! yesss my unlce dave aunt joanne tj and danny and uncle sunny are herEE!! yeaHHh! i got bak from atlantic city today yes i eneded up goin by myself but i had a fckin blasstt!!!! .. the hotel was fckin GOOOOOOOOOORGEOUS i have never ( Read more... )

well i attempted to redo my journal and fcked it up royally lol so i have to wait for my sister to come to the rescue and fix it thaaa way i want bych.. oh oh oh theres so many good icons that i likee but i can only choose one! grRR! heres a lil thingie i did bc im biizzord ( Read more... )

hi hi hi.. today was a half a day and it was gay and i felt and looked like shyt i wanted the day to be over! lol last nite i went to the milford brook book fair! it was so much fun! lmaoo i dont have a life.. so today adam picked me twyla lina and jen upp and then ashh and we were all off to applebees! the line was out the door so we said fck it ( Read more... )

welcome to marine park* bro0klyn.. where u can play patti cake and take driving lesssons from PORKY =) jeffy had a little run in with a black guy in the city when the guy cut jeff off.. he yelled at jeff.. THANKS ALOT PORKY.. hm.. i dont get it. jeffs not fat at all.. maybe it's bc hes white.. ? haha he'll never live this upp his nickname is now ( Read more... )

So i guess this is what it feels like to have ur heart ripped out for the 100th time and stepped on and picked at and spitt on and shit on and what ever else anyone can do to your heart. why do i let you do this to me all the time. you build me up to fckin watch me break. i wanna love someone again..and it's not you ( Read more... )

i think jeff wants to drive me so insane that i just have a mental break down. i swaer to god the man thinks hes such a fckin hard ass. he is and its really annoying. hes always the VICTIM all the time and he always has to be right HMM REMINDS ME OF SOMEONE ELSE I KNOW..everything was fine last nite i got outta the shower and he told me that i can ( Read more... )