wow so yeah...nothing at all has been happening except for the same cycle of everything(friends,boys,drugs,drinking,parent) yeah all that shit no time to explain it all

okay so everything is going tres bien right now!! except for the fact that i dont think that im going to be friends much longer with sarah!! i loved the long weekend it was fuckin the greatest ever!! whooo okay thats all oh and me and jeanna are PIMPS

so im an idiot and could have fucked everything up with my best friend...we shall see if i deserve forgiveness. but last night was great for me i got to hang out with my lover even though at the same time it was shit. but then school today brought confusion about with the same boy!! i think i may be reading signals incorrectly. ahhh i wish he would ( Read more... )

wow this was going to be a freakin sweet weekend this is how it was supposed to go ( Read more... )

wow its been so freakin long since i updated...umm home life better but i just got in trouble, wow and for some odd reason the love life department isnt really looking so dull anymore we have 3 potential whoo yay im slightly happy about that. but freakin valentines day is coming up and personally boyfriend or no boyfriend it is a compleat waste of ( Read more... )

well i did it again i fell for a guy only to find out that he would choose the girl skankier and prettier then me. i wish i could control my hormones ahh then life would be perfect! well other then my constant boy troubles everything is going much much better im getting along great with my friends and my parents. yeah and work is okay and i get ( Read more... )

have you ever had that feeling where you have lost it all? yeah i feel like its officially happend and nothing can cure it. not the "best" friends i have, not the tears i cry, not the wonderful god i believe in, no the next new fun drug to try, not the next hookup, not the scars that i have given to myself. nothing can cure my sadness i feel like i ( Read more... )

Ok its official im numb to every mistake i make. i have stoped caring and it nearly feels like im have stoped loving myself and my family. the only thing i can say is im praying that i figure my life out before i do something increadibly terrible. and i pray that my sister is able to witness my mistakes and make much better choices to better ( Read more... )

last night was very much worth it. i wont go into details because i will bore anyone who reads!

you know that song that u listen to that makes u smile or feel like shit or cry or even just reminds you of yourself and theres really no specific reason that those songs would make you feel that way? well i love that feeling. okay thats all on that subject ( Read more... )