the ex talked to me yesterday. it broke my heart a little to feel what two years down the drain is.

the past is well in the past. so who is going to build a future with me? who is going to marry me? have my kids?
who knows. i guess thats what is the most troubling thing.

men are horrible. harry potter tonight? hopefully.

He never called.

His phone is off.
I thought he got here today or YESTERDAY.

This kinda sucks. On the otherhand I went MAJOR shopping :)

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when im drunk i go home and cut my bangs and write stuff that i dont even know what im talking about.

god help me i should hide my scissors.

so a few minutes ago i was so happy dreaming about getting a puppy and naming her sunshine and calling her sunny.

then i myspace whored and well. i wish i was tall and i wish i was a model and gorgeous and had a portfolio full of gorgeous pictures. all of the sudden i feel crappy.

( handsomethoughts )