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So...
It's been close to a year since the last time I posted, so I figure I should give a small update. I'm getting my second associates degree in May, then in the fall I'll be starting at Ellis University online to get my paralegal degree, which I should complete in 18 months ( Read more... ) -
Goodbyes Are Never Easy
Around 8am it will be 5 years since Nick passed away. Right now it seems like it was just yesterday....I remember that entire week up untill the memorial service. I couldn't cry that entire week...then when mom got up to read white my brother had wrote I broke down. Granted I started losing it when Mr. Beck told us Nick's ashes were there and he ( Read more... ) -
Hate me...
I'm not a good person. A good person wouldn't have been the mistress of a married man for 5 months. A good person wouldn't want to cut themselves all the time. A good person wouldn't think about him still ( Read more... ) -
Most Amusing...
Dear kaguI don't really know how to tell you this, but our horoscope doesn't match. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me at the mental hospital and I saw you spit at Manchester United's goalkeeper ( Read more... ) -
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So as I sit here I’m listening to a Skillet song...The Last Night. It’s a good song...the first verse...actually the whole song kinda hits close to home a bit
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life...
Have you ever contemplated your own mortality? How we as a species are doomed by ignorance and stupidity....sometimes I wonder how we are even allowed to live.
And why is it so frowned upon because there are people who don't want to live are willing to do something about it?
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Will it ever be enough?
As I sit here and reflect on my life..i'm disgusted. This is not how it was supposed to be, I didn't imagine it this way. And some people might say I'm just having another pity party but I'm not, I'm really wondering how the fuck it turned out this way ( Read more... ) -
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So I've been trying to have a bright outlook on life these days, even with everything that’s happened. But I keep having flashbacks to what I saw in that bedroom that day and its hard. I start a new med this week that will hopefully will help me with my depression and anger, but I really don't know if it will. I also think I need to see a doctor ( Read more... ) -
Long time, no type...
So I'm in school again. It's been over a year since I've been with Dj. I had a miscarriage two days before my 21st birthday. My brother in law killed himself two days before Christmas....one can only hope 2008 will be a smidge better than 2007. I really hope things can get better....I'm not really sure how much more I can take. -
Never pay the Reaper with love only
I've spent this past year trying to forget his memory...and at one point I was trying to drink it away. I don't really know how much strength I really have for it anymore...because the nightmares are back and getting worse. Mom wants to put me in a hospital I think..I doubt any therpist can fix all thats broken in me ( Read more... )