Situation Update: I decided to forget about Martin. It is for the better. As it turns out, I was trying to hold onto something that would never survive a servere storm- you could say. I have met someone new. It happened sort of fast. He's the type I have never been with before. As I said earlier, I, myself, usually would not allow me to have what I ( Read more... )

The past couple of days have been the same. I have not talked to those friends since everything happened on Tuesday. I am starting to think why hold on? I have gotten better by not worrying about it. I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control. It does not stop you from wondering though- why? The think I like about God is that when ( Read more... )

Just you think the life you lead at this certain time could be no better, it soons goes back to the drawing board. To think that all the hard work you put in to everything. The frienships you built with those from the same flock now lay hanging. The more than friends relationship you started to build with another starts to grow more. Soon though ( Read more... )

Today was a typical Monday. I basically sat around the house enjoying my yet another day off from anything to do. An old friend talked to me today about how they had just ended a long while relationship. The other person decided that they just did not love them. They told me that they had basically lied to themself to make therself think that they ( Read more... )

I can remember those past weeks when I would admire you at close range, yet speak no words. The attraction was there and it reamined silent and did not voice it's opinion. Our friends of course stepped in to try out their match-making skills. I guess it worked. A few days pass and it seems as my schedule has been filled with plans with you. I have ( Read more... )

It is funny when you have become the hypocrite in some matters. This is of course nothing serious. It is amusing how I have become a hypocrite to my own standars and rules. The feelings that ride with this set me free. I feel that sense I have broken my own rule, I am roaming wild and free in this somewhat fenced in field. It has a fence yes, which ( Read more... )

#1- New crush you could say? Met him last night. He's so cute.

#2- IT IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#3- 14 means nothing...

Today was the last day of Vacation Bible School! It is so sad. It was a God done action though. Originally I turned in my application for games and recreation. The children's director ended up loosing my application. When I filled it out, I was stuck with teaching four year olds. I had the best time. They are so cute! They gave me a run for my ( Read more... )

Update of the past couple of days ( Read more... )

There comes a time in a persons life when enough is enough. You see that for too long you have been taking stuff from everyone else. You never did anything about it. Now that you think about it all- you have no clue as to why you did not do anything to help yourself. In some situations there is no way for you to help your own self. You have to ( Read more... )