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[uriel8]

what am i suppose to do when a distant brother just starts talking out of nowwhere??? he's just talking and im just here blowing him off sorta catching little things here and there and suicide just stays afloat. my life is going to get tougher so he says. all about college. living on campus, no car, drinking, up late studying, no mistakes....

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[miserablered]

why dont you just try to put your life back to how it was?

dont think about the negative side of life

and if your calling your brother an asshole and all
dont u think your becoming him from what your mom thinks

if u need to talk im here..

[uriel8]

somethings are better not forgotten. no one should forget hitler and what he did and caused. iknow i bit too much but it's part of my life and im not going to forget it. it made me to who i am today. my brother is not an asshole. he's stupid, he's trying to reach out to me but he's no longer a role model and he's fucked up his life a few times and i dont have to listen to him. i dont know. i just have a hate for him i guess. both my brothers. nothing to look up to i guess. among other things i cant really put into words but yeah. fucking hate'em.

[miserablered]

im not telling you to forget who you are..or who've you have becomed..

but seems like your not happy
if not then change it
dont be so fucking negative

and your brother i guess is trying to reach out to you so you wont end up doing the mistakes he has made..

[uriel8]

being negative or positive makes a person. being more positive than negative or being more negative than positive people are like that. it makes them who they are. no im not happy. and never going to reach a certain happiness. im going to feel empty for the rest of my life. and its nothing i can change or fill in with something else. its just going to always be that way. you see that fucking negative comment you just made, me being negative makes me who i am. it's what i grew up with it's what im use to. the mistakes he made that he is telling me about is dont party as much, join a dorm. getting me use to not having a car, study, work hard, enroll early. i've been told all that before but coming from him...i've hated him before and just having him talk to me pisses me off because we were never close and now he tries to be. i dont want that. i dont give a shit about him. i'll handle things my own way.