Boredom ( Read more... )

no point to remember the past when the past has forgotten you. seems to be finally over and all gates should be closed. pointless to mourn or pity when all this was done on my own. it's over now and im nothing great or ever will be and i still take comfort watching others fall. i've lost all that i have right now and now i've accepted my fall ( Read more... )

dont know why but i hear the tv whistle and all i want is that same sad tune to play in my head at my time of death. followed by a piano melody that some i know plays. a tune i heard at someone's house. past memories and i must live in the now. sweet treacherous night dim my eyes and lay be to rest. protect me from the light of day and thought ( Read more... )

Funny how everyone falls apart. youngsters with triple knotted hearts. sad how "certain thoughts" add to the fuel to drive me to do what i never wanted to do. i wanna be engulfed by drug abuse. sitting in a corner puking blood till the day death offers his hand. head is pounding. drinking, snorting, and headbanging and i still cant rid ( Read more... )

as pointless as looking for your penny in a well. it's gone. you've parted and the penny is a mere memory. then more pennies and soon that one penny down the well isnt much anymore. just another coin you thought could be a dream come true. more meaningless crap to cluster my room, to burn for the scent, and to wear on my back. denied a ( Read more... )

family has turned to caretakers. my infection of emptiness has grown worse. im disgusted with family now. my cousins i saw as brothers have moved away. i watch the few around me fall in their own abyss. certain feelings dont feel the same anymore and i may never get them back. i'll turn to what can fuck up my life even more but it's also nice ( Read more... )

what am i suppose to do when a distant brother just starts talking out of nowwhere??? he's just talking and im just here blowing him off sorta catching little things here and there and suicide just stays afloat. my life is going to get tougher so he says. all about college. living on campus, no car, drinking, up late studying, no mistakes.... ( Read more... )

Jonny Lang Lyrics ( Read more... )

Jonny Lang Lyrics ( Read more... )

a bit tired and just felt like doing this i guess. fucking music and pictures are bringing up past thoughts that didnt want to be thinking. at least i shouldnt. maybe my day will get better...even if getting more fucked is what i have to do. i can do that. always fond of the sounds of the piano.