way to make me feel stupid. seriously i'm tired of feeling this way.

"if i give you sugar, will you give me, something illicit and temporary?"

"what am i to do with all this silence?"

i called my mother out on some things. what did she do? she played stupid. somehow i thought it would make me feel better if i confronted her. i'm not quite sure how i feel. i still feel highly disappointed. i still feel angry. i can only feel better knowing that i tried to make her admit the truth. i let her know that i am aware of certain things ( Read more... )

so i'm thinking about some crazy things to do to change. i need to let go of shit that happened to me in the past. i dont know how i can do that. it's a lot of emotional baggage that i'm tired of carrying around. i've been trying to think of ways to get rid of it and i've got a couple ideas, but i dont if they will work. i'm scared, but i think it' ( Read more... )

"Never thought you'd make me perspire
Never thought I'd do you the same
Never thought I'd fill with desire
Never thought I'd feel so ashamed"

"Sleeping with ghosts
It´s such a lonely experience
The stars are out tonight
Only they can hear you breathing"

yay my car insurance went up to $258 per month. man, i love geico and i love how i always seem to get into car accidents. the last person i got into a wreck with claimed he got hurt. he was NOT hurt. we were both going 25 or less in a neighborhood and he was in one of those jacked up jeeps so my car only touched his bumper. there wasnt even a ( Read more... )

i love it when i try to talk to my stepmom about things that are bothering me and her response is "shit happens". shit happens??? oh really??? why didnt anyone bother to tell me? sometimes she really pisses me off.

well, look who is contracted now. who has benefits? i do. who has life insurance? i do. who has a retirement fund now? i do. who is making more money than they've ever made before? me. who's gonna get to go to college for free? me me me. speaking of school, my computer graphics class is probably more than i can chew. it's far too mathematical for ( Read more... )