i've been having a hard time dealing with death lately. which, really, is a hard time dealing with life ( Read more... )

a few hours after i wrote what i last wrote, my brother put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. i literally flew down to florida as soon as i got the news, didn't get a chance to say goodbye to anyone. i spent most of january away from home-- most of my time in florida was spent shuffling back and forth between the hospital and my mom's ( Read more... )

i am beginning a new year in the most charming city in america. i already have a pretty tight circle of room mates/friends and i've gotten as used to the rain as anyone else. there is still so much to want, to dream of, to pine for, and while i'm not all that close yet, i'm closer than i've ever been ( Read more... )

i honestly don't know what i'm feeling

jasmine died. she's dead. she was one of my very dear friends, not to mention the first and only girl i've ever felt i could love. she's dead; she was doored while riding on atlantic avenue last saturday, september 11th of all stange days, and knocked in front of a speeding bus. she's gone, and i'm moving to portland in a week and a half. i'm going ( Read more... )

i almost called a psychic, but then i just called some friends. probably a much better decision ( Read more... )

it's kind of sinking in that i'm not going back to school this semester. i'm freaking out a little. i'm coming to realize that i am not one of those vastly aware, literate types, and that i never will be, and that there's a good chance that i will amount to nothing of interest even though i have a talent that, if fine tuned, could be reputable. it' ( Read more... )

dear livejournal ( Read more... )

it seems that moving before graduation is getting less and less plausible. it was never a sensible move to begin with, mind you, but i'm not one for sensible. it's just that the cost of school for being an out-of-state resident (which i would be, for a year), even with cheaper rent, far surpasses the annual cost of living here now. and while that ( Read more... )

this band is really getting me through it. ginger alford and matt tobey. the music of my teenage years compounded into one amazing noodly pop punk band that seriously makes me happy

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