i want an explanation damnit.

so work is going excellent, im making so much money. thats about the only thing i have to say. pce!

i dont understand why he wont call. i know theres a phone where hes at, a friend talked to the guy hes staying with today and he said they were there and just drinkin and chillin. yeah i can see why it would be such a hastle to call your girlfriend. i guess thats just how its gonna be then...

i should be happy, right? i got what i wanted. he doesn't want to leave me here alone. i should be bouncing off the fucking walls. but i feel so strange. i mean, i am thrilled that maybe things can work with us. but what if im not worth it. what if he makes this life-changing decision and stays with me, and im not good enough for that. i ( Read more... )

so i didnt see vincent today. so that part kinda sucked. but i did get to hang out with raven and nick and larry for a while. got some baby pics of leahs baby. hes getting so big, i dont like it ( Read more... )

so i missed hfstival and chili cook off. but my brother called me during the foo fighters and let me listen to them. i thought that was thoughtful.

i was very hung over today.

im not in such a shitty mood anymore. i am a little on the frustrated side, but whatever. ill take it as is goes. not really much else i can do.

im so exhausted.

i feel like the firm grip i had on my life is slipping through my fingers. all the control i thought i had over my own life is ceasing to exist. and im not happy ( Read more... )

im in a really really really really really really really really SHITTY MOOD ( Read more... )

so my first day of work went suprisingly well. a girl i havent seen since middle school works there too. it was crazy as hell seein her ( Read more... )

im feeling very overwhelmed. i dont know how much more of this i can handle. im so tired of people expecting everything from me, its getting harder every day ( Read more... )

i start my new job tomorrow :) im actually going to have money for a change. i cant wait ( Read more... )